I want to thank everyone who has been praying for me and my family. I am truly in awe of just how faithful God is and just how many people around the world that are praying for us. I want you to know your prayers are felt and have truly sustained us in the most difficult of days.
The past several weeks have probably been the hardest weeks my family has endured. John has been amazing and has truly lived and walked out our marriage vows. He has either been working, taking care of the kids or me, doing an incredible amount of research and has stood by my side and prayed for me faithfully.
So so many friends have sent messages, cards, donations, meals and have helped with me and the kids.
Last week around his time things got really rough and bad around here. To be honest I Truly did not think I would pull through and make it. I told John to make sure the kids knew I loved them, that I loved him and that if I didn’t make it I wanted him to move on, find someone to make him happy. There was a time in the ER that he told me to close my eyes and rest. I told him that I was scared to because I was afraid I would not wake up. He said then you will wake up with Jesus, with tears rolling down his face, and said there is no better place to be.
Last night as I was struggling to fall asleep the Lord kept downloading what has transpired over the last several weeks. I laid in bed, in prayer and thanksgiving, praising His high and Holy name for giving me the Strength i needed to persevere through the days. I truly am in complete awe of how faithful, loving and amazing HE is. I have to say I believe I am on the road to healing. I am so so so much better then the weeks past, still struggling but gosh, a week ago I truly believed my time here was done and now a week later, I can lay in bed and laugh with my kids and husband. Walk independently without falling and can speak without slurring my words. Truly, truly amazing.
I want to deeply thank you and let you know how much you all mean to me. I do not believe, without all of your fervent prayers I would be where I am at today. Please continue to pray for ALL OF US. This season has truly left a huge sad spot in all of our hearts. We leave for the Mayo Clinic May 28th and have several appointments that week. My trust, hope and faith is in the Lord and I am confident that complete healing is just around the corner. HE has already shown how victorious He is in and through this through all the amazing things He has done and continues to do. His Word, His promises and His truths are what carry me/us through.
My prayer through all of this has been that He would get honor and glory. That people would come to know of His great name through this and that people would grow in their relationship with Him. I would have to say that prayer continuously gets heard and answered.
Love you all and to say thank you just doesn’t seem to be enough. You are all treasured in my heart and I am forever grateful for you.
Isaiah 43: 1-3 fear not for I have redeemed you, I have summoned YOU by name, you are mine. WHEN you pass through the waters, I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers they will NOT sweep over you. WHEN you walk through the fire, you will NOT be burned: the flames will not set you ablaze. For I AM the Lord, your God the Holy one of Israel, your SAVIOR.
One of my many favorite scriptures and one that has truly carries me through because it’s not IF its WHEN and its not maybe I will be there but He promises to keep us afloat. To be with us every step of the way. Love this truth. Know that whatever you or I may be walking through, that our God is bigger than any of the trails, hardships or disappointments. He will see us through and His name and face will always and continue to shine.
Be blessed today
