Gosh.. This past week has been difficult for me. I have taken some steps backwards but still praising God that I am so far ahead of where I was two weeks ago. I am learning and realizing that my body is really weak and I have to be cautious of what I put into my system because I can quickly have a reaction to something my body cannot handle. I have had to lean on the Lord extra hard this week because the enemy has tried to come at me in different ways to bring me down, throw me off course and to be honest, I found myself on the spiral downwards.
But this is what I so love about how big and on time God is. He saw this coming and knew what I needed. Again, He sent angels in my life, people to send me encouraging messages, scriptures, people to listen to me purge my disappointments and lead me back to Him and the cross. My husband has allowed me to rest and get better and my kids well al they have wanted to do is just love on me. I know they say sometimes you need to take a step backwards in order to move forward but I never imagined it included this. It broke my heart when Avery said to me yesterday, I don’t feel well just like mommy never feels well. Ouch that hurt. That they know me as someone that never feels well. Oh how I wait til the day I sing HIS praises on how He delivered me from this and brought me to complete and abundant healing. The day I can do FUN things with my kids and the day when I am healed.
However, I praise HIM because although I have been sick for the past several years, my children have seen HIS strength when I am weak, His light when things seemed so dark, His hope when things were hopeless, His faithfulness when there was doubt and His all encompassing love that has allowed us to keep our eyes steadfast on HIM.
They have seen us not wavering in our trust and faithfulness in His truths and promises and they have seen us continue to redirect our thoughts to Him and praise Him even in the eye of the storm. Our unwavering faith and obedience to God has matured these three children in leaps and bounds. I so dislike what they have had to endure but man I am proud how they have handled this difficult and challenging season and they did it with such perseverance and love. God has truly blessed me with three little Godly angles.
So, as I get discouraged about where I am and where I “want” to be I remember that not only do I have this, but He has this. He has continued to be faithful and He has continued to carry me through the storm. He has rescued me so I can stand and sing, I AM a child of God.
This season, this trail is going to be used to testify of just how awesome and great He is. We are called to be His witness and we are called to let go, be still and allow Him to do a mighty work In and through us, being still enough and allowing Him to be God.
We have a choice on where we go and whom we go with. I don’t know about you but I know that where ever I go, I want Him to be with me, leading me besides quite waters and leading me to a place of rest of His shalom peace bea use when we allow HIM lead us, we will experience a peace that surpasses all understanding and we will experience an unwavering love. You will experience His mighty hand at work and you will experience being a part of glorious His kingdom.
We don’t want to people that have eyes but are blind and ears but are deaf. We want to be people that can see, hear an live out His truths and promises and we want to be people that can testify of His faithfulness and goodness.
I pray that as I walk through this valley that you are able to see, through my transparency of my journey, just how simply magnificent He truly is. That you are able to find hope, light and love. That you can see just how faithful He is and that you can place your hardships, burdens and trails in His hands, knowing He will guide you and carry you through the eye of your storm and that He will lead you to solid ground. I can promise you this. He will never leave you nor forsake you and He will love you in such a way that your head will never turn back because you will want more of HIM.
Be blessed day and go with the Angels
Psalm 23 A psalm of David. 1 The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. 4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,[a] I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Proverbs 3:5-6 5.. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.[a]